i always screw up.
that's what i do.
anytime i have something good,
i screw it up.
will the cycle ever end.
i hope so.
i have something so so good right now
and i am in the process of
screwing it up majorly.
but i want so bad not to.
i love him with all that i have.
yet something inside of me is still
trying to mess it up.
i am so lucky to get to spend the
rest of my life with him,
if i don't mess it up completely before then.
he makes me so extremely happy
but i am very bad at showing it.
i am naturally an uptight person.
i am trying to change, i truly am.
i hope i can. for his sake.
so he isn't trapped in an awful marriage.
i love him with all of my heart
and i am so thankful that he loves me
and is willing to put up with me.